When I was a bit younger, I had already planned what would it like
when I go to college. Everything was set and properly planned. From my
course to my dream university. Yet when I failed to take the USTet,
those plans I had in my head slowly crumbled like weathering rocks. I
felt mortified when my dream of getting out of Davao and start a new
life in Manila as a college student cannot happen and WILL NEVER HAPPEN.
After that, I've been going through an inner battle within my ambitious
self and my laid-back self. After months of asking myself, I ended up
in the situation that almost every High School go through-where would I
go next?
After I got the exam result yesterday and my prospectus, I didn't feel giddy or excited. In fact I felt blank, almost nothing. Then if my dad approaches me and ask me if I'll take up I.S. ,I just keep my mouth shut.
Sure, I'm pretty firm about my ambitions of being a lawyer but I can't proceed to law right away if I don't graduate a 4-year course. Because of this, I am absolutely torn with these two specific courses that is closely related to my strengths. That is International Studies or Mass Communications.
I've been pretty engrossed with books since I was young. Also,since I learned how to talk straight when I was 3, I never stopped talking,haha. Then, when my cousin introduced my to the world of writing, I've been immersing myself in writing stories which I always fail to finish(facepalms). I'm not making it sound like I'm a bookworm or worse a geek yet reading has been a part of my learning. I could say I'm worth a degree in Mass Communications. But years ago, a friend of my grandma discouraged me when I said that I'll take up Mass Communications. I remember she said this: Wag kang mag MassCom Monique, maraming hindi nakapagtrabaho diyan. (Don't take up MassCom Monique, a lot of graduates did not land a job from that course.) I know some people who graduated MassCom who ended up as tambays or in a decent manner, became call center agents. This made me back up and think of an another course. Then I learned about International Studies.
International Studies has so much to offer like traveling or getting assigned to Japan. In the school I had applied to, they are directly supported by their Japanese administrators because it its a Japanese school (Mindanao Kokusai Daigaku,to be precise) yet I'm not sure myself if I'd land a job related in this course. I don't want to end up applying for a job that is not in-line with my degree. Worse, I don't want to be unemployed. I hate to fail my parents and waste the money they'll spend.
If I choose to take up Mass Com, I have two universities in mind: Ateneo de Davao University or University of Mindanao. Although personally I'd rather attend in UM than in ADDU because I don't believe in them. They're all just paarte and doesn't have a single grasp of reality. In I.S. ,I have 1 school in mind which I had mentioned earlier. If ever I choose this course, I'd only want to concentrate in Japanese and nothing else.
I only have days to make up this godforsaken mind. If I choose the wrong path, I'd be doomed. I don't want to wallow myself in regret one day for choosing the worse decision. I just want a bright future and a surefire career.
Shit this post is way damn long. it's probably the longest post I wrote here in Blogspot. Anyways, I'm still glad I poured everything here otherwise I would explode.
After I got the exam result yesterday and my prospectus, I didn't feel giddy or excited. In fact I felt blank, almost nothing. Then if my dad approaches me and ask me if I'll take up I.S. ,I just keep my mouth shut.
Sure, I'm pretty firm about my ambitions of being a lawyer but I can't proceed to law right away if I don't graduate a 4-year course. Because of this, I am absolutely torn with these two specific courses that is closely related to my strengths. That is International Studies or Mass Communications.
I've been pretty engrossed with books since I was young. Also,since I learned how to talk straight when I was 3, I never stopped talking,haha. Then, when my cousin introduced my to the world of writing, I've been immersing myself in writing stories which I always fail to finish(facepalms). I'm not making it sound like I'm a bookworm or worse a geek yet reading has been a part of my learning. I could say I'm worth a degree in Mass Communications. But years ago, a friend of my grandma discouraged me when I said that I'll take up Mass Communications. I remember she said this: Wag kang mag MassCom Monique, maraming hindi nakapagtrabaho diyan. (Don't take up MassCom Monique, a lot of graduates did not land a job from that course.) I know some people who graduated MassCom who ended up as tambays or in a decent manner, became call center agents. This made me back up and think of an another course. Then I learned about International Studies.
International Studies has so much to offer like traveling or getting assigned to Japan. In the school I had applied to, they are directly supported by their Japanese administrators because it its a Japanese school (Mindanao Kokusai Daigaku,to be precise) yet I'm not sure myself if I'd land a job related in this course. I don't want to end up applying for a job that is not in-line with my degree. Worse, I don't want to be unemployed. I hate to fail my parents and waste the money they'll spend.
If I choose to take up Mass Com, I have two universities in mind: Ateneo de Davao University or University of Mindanao. Although personally I'd rather attend in UM than in ADDU because I don't believe in them. They're all just paarte and doesn't have a single grasp of reality. In I.S. ,I have 1 school in mind which I had mentioned earlier. If ever I choose this course, I'd only want to concentrate in Japanese and nothing else.
I only have days to make up this godforsaken mind. If I choose the wrong path, I'd be doomed. I don't want to wallow myself in regret one day for choosing the worse decision. I just want a bright future and a surefire career.
Shit this post is way damn long. it's probably the longest post I wrote here in Blogspot. Anyways, I'm still glad I poured everything here otherwise I would explode.
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