College Shock

Adjusting to a new environment is one of the painful processes when you deal with change. You will start to slowly to erase the things you usually do before in your system and let new things enter your life. You start to do things you don't usually do before when you were still in your comfort zone. Suddenly, you realize that the old you is starting to fade away while the changed you starts to surface on the ground. This drastic change is now happening to me, and honestly, I don't like how things are turning out. Waking up at 5:30 or earlier, doing assignments, STUDYING, lesser late night chats with my cousin/roommate,seeing my friends meeting new people was not what I had expected. I can't see the word "FUN" in my college life as of now. My new friends doesn't like to go out much and just waste their time talking about anime and crushes(their crushes are not even attractive). Although my allowance had already increased, Php60-Php100, I can't receive my allowance from my grandma cause she's broke. Why is money so elusive to people nowadays? Enough of the money talk, did I already said that Nihongo is killing my brains off? And the fact that our SRJP1 teacher is so motherfucking-overies exploding-underwear tearing handsome gives my head a total brain damage.   I don't even like to wear the uniform. I'd rather wear civilian clothes. If my mom would ask if I'd wear the uniform, I'll just make up an excuse that I still don't have the scarf (our uniform has a scarf that is worm underneath the collar). I'm also starting to lose time on my social networking. I could only use the laptop every weekends which is such a bummer! If childbirth has post-partum depression, I call this as college depression. Makes sense eh? I hope it doesn't get worse.

For now, I am still grasping to my new place. I chose to proceed to college after all. I could've ask my parents to enroll me to grade 11. I just hope I could enjoy college and not treat this as a mind torture.

Before I forgot, I still have to make a corner proposal for my new job (which I'll blog after a few days).