It's totally a bummer when you plan something and it doesn't go through smoothly. Especially if you planned a lot. You know, you're so excited about what's gonna happen and what would it turn out but in the end, it's walking through a different lane. I don't like planning. In fact, I absolutely hate planning. This situation always happen to me whenever I want to achieve something and then it turns to be busted because of a lot of consequences.

That's why I idolize spontaneous people. They don't plan. They don't expect anything in return. They just go with it. I just wonder why did my parents not raised as a spontaneous girl. The odds would've liked it. I would've like
to live this dopeshit life of mine.

Everything is fucked up.